life exist

it’s been a while when i had my last blog and i think im uber sad to burst out these feelings inside to post another blog like this. well here it goes. for the past few days ive been thinking of the things thats been bothering me for quite some time now, thinking if i should hold on and keep believing that everythings okay, thinking if i could continue to go thru all this trials in my life.. i am tired to start of. im tired of living up with other peoples expecations. from my family, down to my friends and loveones. and its slowly killing me inside and for once i would like to live my life the way i wanted it to be and yet it seems that my dream for me now is just a blurry vision. a mirage of hope. now how am i supposed to carry on the life that i wanted when i think that my dream is more likely to come into an end. and tell me where should i start? ive suffered enough trying to be someone im not.. and it seems that ive been trapped on others shadow. sad but its true.